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alive sick and free
03:12
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i cant sleep i dont wanna sleep
somethings gotta be in me alive sick and free
linger like a ghost
staining my shadow with a presence courser than most
i dont want to be so dulland sick with glee
maybe everybody knows maybe nobody knows
maybe everybody knows maybe nobody knows
but it tattooed on my skin
its only funny because i have a twin
he shivers and rocks back and forth on a cold basement floor
tattooed and scarred
says he has night terrors again
well there nothing i can say that i wont regret
i cant sleep again
i cant sleep i dont wanna sleep
somethings gotta be in me alive sick and free
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phone screens
03:06
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why are you always such a liar ive heard these things before
screaming out of phones screens eating dirt and drinking weeds
but i just dont know
anymore, every chance i see i run for the door
even when theres something too look forward to
every one i know is always throwing their backs out
for someone somewhere something fussing
but i dont wanna know
anymore, faces painted lay on the floor
even when i have nothing ill have so much more
and i just dont even know anymoe
ive been falling in love since since the day you were born
i just dont even know anymore
i just dont want to see when what goes down when you leave
i just dont want to see what goes down
everyone i know is so confident and careless
they stride with sorrows loosely borrowed
and i dont wanna be in on
the secret, you know that i wont keep it
im a loud mouth let me eat it when it falls
and i dont know anymore
im sick of running of towards the door
im out of breath and im lacking and im waiting for maybe you will care
but maybe i just dont know
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filthy liar / sunrise
02:59
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Ive been watching the sunise for 5 days and nights sleepless as a ghost im waiting for phone call that i know will come, and break off my tongue
and i dont even know how
to live without the dirt under my skin
ive was filthy and sick crawling in my own whims but the voices i heard, they screamed like the birds in the mourning when im waking or running on fumes from singing towards the gap between the devil and you
and i wont ever know how
to read these creatures out
ive been listening to the wailing to the pleading to the believing to the deceiving to the retrieving to the sound of my lungs screaming
christ is the way, he'll curse off the pain, you will breath again when he comes home some day
and oh my god i can explain
exactly how we fucked up everything
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makeshift tourniquets
02:56
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you looked through the cabinets today did you find the makeshift tourniquets and spades of wasted time
inky marked stains on the carpet tell you no lies
what ever could they hide
i looked through some notebooks today my mind inflated and hung around swollen and dragging behind
nobody ever needs to hear me cry
i walked a while in your shoes at some point yesterday, i felt the blisters blooming up while while the splinters stuck to stay
did i ever realize the comets shooting off in your eyes
what ever could they hide
you looked through the cabinets today did you find the make shift tourniquets and spades of wasted time
inky mark stains on the carpet tell you no lies
what ever could they hide
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oh woah oh no
02:23
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i just dont know
i just dont know
i love i love you so
i just dont know
i love and my love goes so
and i just dont know
just dont know
just dont know
just dont know
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bother
03:11
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walk around town and beat the shit out of myself
get lost and drag myself home starved and alone
i want to call someone, but i broke my stupid phone
i dont mean to be a bother but i need a ride home
ive smoked myself silly and drank too much caffine and everything i see is blurry and whirling
spinning in my own skull again im only saying these words so that i dont forget
who i am, who i am
i dont mean to be a bother but i just need a hand
all i speak is cruelty and ive been far too busy staring at the ceiling when i am spinning
around in the oh shit i can tell, this will easily be pinned on my mental health
but i dont agree, when i said that i wasnt me
i dont mean to be a bother i, just need some room to breath
walk around town and beat the shit out of myself
get lost and drag myself home starved and alone
i want to call someone, but i hate my fuckn phone
i dont mean to be a bother i just, dont want to be alone
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nobody knows
03:02
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no one even knows what it seems to be
im waiting too late all over the kamikazee
ill step into anothers shoes
someones gonna come and take it from me
i dont know understand who im gonna be
you dont even wait for, you wont even wait for
dont fall in
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words don't work
03:40
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leave me
leave me out
leave me
leave me out
dont take
her away
but i kmow
itll be okay
i dont need this
words dont work
fuck yeah it hurts
words they dont work
fuck yeah it hurts
i dont know what to do
i dont know what to do
i dont know what to do
i dont know
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I guess ill always be the type of girl who isnt mean
but ill make you tear your eyes out roll your car and scream out
oh bloody love let me be free
how could i have done this convinced myself and others
im not just your average ramona flowers
how can i kill, the devil with my teeth
gotta get through them to get to me
oh bloody love let me be free
I guess ill always be the type of girl who isnt mean
but ill make you tear your hair out roll your car and scream out
oh bloody love let me be free
sitting reminiscing about the things i was missing
stoned on my own or chain smoking the woes
oh but the ghosts wont let me be
follow them right back onto me
oh bloody love let me be free
Ill go to my home where ill sit and be alone
and you will pull at my barriers and i will just stare at ya
oh bloody love let me be free
how could i have done this convinced myself and others
im not just your average ramona flowers
how do i kill the devil thats in me
follow them right back onto me
oh bloody love let me be free
gotta get through them to get to me
oh bloody love let me be free
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