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Left The Party Early

by Bart Goop

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i cant sleep i dont wanna sleep somethings gotta be in me alive sick and free linger like a ghost staining my shadow with a presence courser than most i dont want to be so dulland sick with glee maybe everybody knows maybe nobody knows maybe everybody knows maybe nobody knows but it tattooed on my skin its only funny because i have a twin he shivers and rocks back and forth on a cold basement floor tattooed and scarred says he has night terrors again well there nothing i can say that i wont regret i cant sleep again i cant sleep i dont wanna sleep somethings gotta be in me alive sick and free
2.
why are you always such a liar ive heard these things before screaming out of phones screens eating dirt and drinking weeds but i just dont know anymore, every chance i see i run for the door even when theres something too look forward to every one i know is always throwing their backs out for someone somewhere something fussing but i dont wanna know anymore, faces painted lay on the floor even when i have nothing ill have so much more and i just dont even know anymoe ive been falling in love since since the day you were born i just dont even know anymore i just dont want to see when what goes down when you leave i just dont want to see what goes down everyone i know is so confident and careless they stride with sorrows loosely borrowed and i dont wanna be in on the secret, you know that i wont keep it im a loud mouth let me eat it when it falls and i dont know anymore im sick of running of towards the door im out of breath and im lacking and im waiting for maybe you will care but maybe i just dont know
3.
Ive been watching the sunise for 5 days and nights sleepless as a ghost im waiting for phone call that i know will come, and break off my tongue and i dont even know how to live without the dirt under my skin ive was filthy and sick crawling in my own whims but the voices i heard, they screamed like the birds in the mourning when im waking or running on fumes from singing towards the gap between the devil and you and i wont ever know how to read these creatures out ive been listening to the wailing to the pleading to the believing to the deceiving to the retrieving to the sound of my lungs screaming christ is the way, he'll curse off the pain, you will breath again when he comes home some day and oh my god i can explain exactly how we fucked up everything
4.
you looked through the cabinets today did you find the makeshift tourniquets and spades of wasted time inky marked stains on the carpet tell you no lies what ever could they hide i looked through some notebooks today my mind inflated and hung around swollen and dragging behind nobody ever needs to hear me cry i walked a while in your shoes at some point yesterday, i felt the blisters blooming up while while the splinters stuck to stay did i ever realize the comets shooting off in your eyes what ever could they hide you looked through the cabinets today did you find the make shift tourniquets and spades of wasted time inky mark stains on the carpet tell you no lies what ever could they hide
5.
i just dont know i just dont know i love i love you so i just dont know i love and my love goes so and i just dont know just dont know just dont know just dont know
6.
bother 03:11
walk around town and beat the shit out of myself get lost and drag myself home starved and alone i want to call someone, but i broke my stupid phone i dont mean to be a bother but i need a ride home ive smoked myself silly and drank too much caffine and everything i see is blurry and whirling spinning in my own skull again im only saying these words so that i dont forget who i am, who i am i dont mean to be a bother but i just need a hand all i speak is cruelty and ive been far too busy staring at the ceiling when i am spinning around in the oh shit i can tell, this will easily be pinned on my mental health but i dont agree, when i said that i wasnt me i dont mean to be a bother i, just need some room to breath walk around town and beat the shit out of myself get lost and drag myself home starved and alone i want to call someone, but i hate my fuckn phone i dont mean to be a bother i just, dont want to be alone
7.
nobody knows 03:02
no one even knows what it seems to be im waiting too late all over the kamikazee ill step into anothers shoes someones gonna come and take it from me i dont know understand who im gonna be you dont even wait for, you wont even wait for dont fall in
8.
leave me leave me out leave me leave me out dont take her away but i kmow itll be okay i dont need this words dont work fuck yeah it hurts words they dont work fuck yeah it hurts i dont know what to do i dont know what to do i dont know what to do i dont know
9.
I guess ill always be the type of girl who isnt mean but ill make you tear your eyes out roll your car and scream out oh bloody love let me be free how could i have done this convinced myself and others im not just your average ramona flowers how can i kill, the devil with my teeth gotta get through them to get to me oh bloody love let me be free I guess ill always be the type of girl who isnt mean but ill make you tear your hair out roll your car and scream out oh bloody love let me be free sitting reminiscing about the things i was missing stoned on my own or chain smoking the woes oh but the ghosts wont let me be follow them right back onto me oh bloody love let me be free Ill go to my home where ill sit and be alone and you will pull at my barriers and i will just stare at ya oh bloody love let me be free how could i have done this convinced myself and others im not just your average ramona flowers how do i kill the devil thats in me follow them right back onto me oh bloody love let me be free gotta get through them to get to me oh bloody love let me be free

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released September 15, 2017

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